Arthur, these last few days have wiped me out. While I’m not exhausted from multiple middle of the night wake up calls, around the clock feedings, and dealing with blowout diapers, my emotions have been in hyper-drive these past few days. This bereaved motherhood thing is hard. But it is worth loving you. Your sister picked out a yellow balloon for you this month. I wish Adele could be hugging you instead of this balloon. Oh, I can’t wait to hug you again. Happy 5 months in heaven, my love, I’ll be there soon!